39 Weeks

I wrote this day before Rivers came (April 2nd) It's funny the things we worry about. I forgot to take a 39 week baby bump picture as well as a 40 week. So this is the last of the baby bump updates.Bitter Sweet.

I made it to the end of 39 Weeks, I honestly didn't think I would. Tomorrow is my due date and as much as I wish that he will show up tomorrow I just don't think he will, however I've started to feel like he isn't ever going to come. Like he honestly isn't in there anymore, he's just left my body and I'm never going to see him.

I was really hoping for an Easter baby but he didn't want to come then I guess. We were in sharing time for primary and this little girl in our class ALWAYS rubs my belly like she is giving it a little blessing it's kind of funny. Anyways she is rubbing my belly and I'm watching her thinking when are you going to come? I just want to be your mother already. And then I lost it, like could not stop crying big heavy alligator tears. Oh my it was so embarrassing! I felt like everyone was staring at me, another teacher offered to stay with our class if we wanted to go home. But I was fine I really was I just had a weak moment.. in the middle of singing time.

I'm trying so hard to be patient I really am, and honestly every day that goes by I am kind of grateful for because like I said last week it gives me one more day to get things done. One more day to finish more school and one more day of sleeping in. But now that it is getting so close I worry if he will ever come, and if he is getting too big.

We meet with the real doctor tomorrow and I so hope there is good news or I go into labor before that. My mom comes on Sunday and I was really hoping the baby would come before that so she can see him and be here to help. Anyday now baby we are ready!