38 Weeks

 38 Weeks! Baby is still the size of a Watermelon! 

* This post was written last Friday 3/29

I was surprisingly calm this week and not every second was spent worrying about what wasn't done before baby got here. I'm feeling a lot calmer the closer we get, at least calmer about the state of our house or what is or is not clean. Even though I wish he was here already I am a little grateful for everyday that goes by that I am able to get farther in school, farther with cleaning the house, and those extra moments with David.

We met with the "doctor" yesterday. Remember how he is out of town until Sunday ugh... So really I met with the nurse, she checked his heart 140 (good) and my blood pressure was good. The main concerns at this point. I lost a pound Putting me at gaining exactly 20 pounds. I know it sounds so stupid but I really couldn't be happier about that, I feel like I gain weight pretty easy and it's hard to get and keep off so 20 pounds is really a blessing to a girl who already felt like she had some pounds to shed.

I am only dilated 1cm and 80% effaced. So they are thinking I still have time. I'm ok with this for now, labor really scares me and if I have sometime to enjoy before that's good right? But I am also really ready for him to come I just really want to see his little face plus I'm worried he will come too late like after my mom gets here. But I know it will all work out. 

At the beginning of this week I thought maybe I was having real contractions in the middle of the night and in my half asleep delriam I said a prayer asking for the baby to come now, can he just come now? I got a very distinct answer of "Not yet" Which was pretty cool even if the answer was no because I feel like I have to pour my heart for hours in order to get an answer and even though I was hoping for an imidate contraction after that prayer, I was more grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who understood my impatience and let me know I still had time.

I keep asking Dave when he thinks he will come and he always says I don't feel like a distinct prompting of this is when he will come. Neither do I. We both agree that it's just hard to imagine him coming at all, that next week we could be real parents and have a baby to take care of.

David was born on an Easter Sunday ( I know I've said this a thousand times) so I think it would be so cool if he came on Easter but I kind of feel like that's not going to happen...