Rambling thoughts on a Wednesday

Taken May 15th

I love being this kids mom even when he is screaming in my face and I'm not sure what to do and all I wish I could do was scream right along with him. I sometimes worry he got all my nasty traits, like impatience, quickly frustrated, and the ever so popular crying it out method. David is the complete opposite of all these things so lets hope Rivers takes after his amazing Dad. But really this week Rivers has loved testing out his vocal cords on Mama and as soon as Dad gets home it's all smiles and giggles. I'm hoping this is a growth spurt and will pass. 

It's interesting to me that Mothers are not valid more, and not looked at with more respect with all that they do, this motherhood thing is not for the faint of heart.  The constant question of so do you work? The judgemental faces of how do you help support your family? Don't you do hair anymore? Geez, if I were a lawyer you wouldn't be asking me if I was going to practice law out my house would you? Is it not enough that I sacrifice everything to be his mother, and that at the end of the day that's all I want to be. Must I do more? Really? A mother is who I am and what I do, I couldn't be more grateful for that. My place is with this new baby, and I'm going to give it everything I got. Because after this life that is what will count. 

I was reading a popular Mormon Mommy Blog, as they say, and she was talking about our Heavenly Mother in reflection of Mothers day. I myself have always believed we have a Heavenly Mother, I do not believe God could be God without her. But now that I am a mother she seems more real to me, and as I held Rivers today and thought of all the love I had for him, I thought my Heavenly Mother must feel this way about me and just as much as my Heavenly Father wants me to succeed so does She. I thought of how much I would miss Rivers if I had to send him away, and felt that this is how She must feel for both of us.  

I felt so re-assured of my calling as a Mother as I thought of Her today. I've heard it said that we don't necessarily know about our Heavenly Mother because God could and would not stand for us to speak badly of her. She is too sacred to our Heavenly Father and too important, and as I thought about that, I thought you know Women are pretty important to our Heavenly Father. From Him we are given much respect and the work we do is seen as important to Him. And that's enough for me.